[In fact, the second she's off the phone Touka heads out the door and towards Sabriel's home. They're in different cities, so she can't get there right away, but she doesn't waste any time.
The whole way, she can feel her heart beating fiercely in her chest...and by the time she knocks on Sabriel's apartment door, it's pounding in her ears.]
[A slight pause as she walks in and glances down at the coffee.
There's no excuse, honestly. This isn't a type of situation she's used to by any means, and she'll never get used to it. But she still shouldn't have put it off.
There's some nervousness in her movements, but mostly subtle. This isn't a conversation Touka ever wants to have with anyone. Especially not people she cares about so much. It's simpler- easier to just keep it hidden.]
[Maybe Sabriel's trying to sound reassuring, but Touka still flinches a little at the words "eat them".]
It's...it's not that I didn't want to tell you. I don't want anyone to know. Ever. That's how things've always been for me.
[She pauses, having a hard time meeting Sabriel's gaze.]
Getting found out back home? It sure as fuck isn't likely that'd I'd stay friends with anyone... Or even be able to stay in the same town. In fact, it's as good as a death sentence.
[It's not an exaggeration. This is survival...it's what she's grown up with.]
Your secrets are your own- they're not for me, or anyone else, to share.
Locking away recent memories is simple enough, and you're- you're my friend. If it's not something you want known, I'll help you hide it- you've kept my secret too, after all.
[She looks away again- feeling overwhelmed. After all the fear and anxiousness about this coming out...Sabriel's still so quick to offer her help like this. It's one of the things she's always admired about her friend...but Touka'd been too afraid to expect it in a situation like this.
After a moment or two, she manages a small, quick nod- her heart beating hard in her chest.]
...Thanks. [There's weight behind that word- more than she can actually bring herself to explain in full.]
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[In fact, the second she's off the phone Touka heads out the door and towards Sabriel's home. They're in different cities, so she can't get there right away, but she doesn't waste any time.
The whole way, she can feel her heart beating fiercely in her chest...and by the time she knocks on Sabriel's apartment door, it's pounding in her ears.]
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Sabriel doesn't seem angry, but beneath her careful calm, she feels awkward. She wants to say I don't care and ask why didn't you tell me?.]
We probably should have had this talk earlier.
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[A slight pause as she walks in and glances down at the coffee.
There's no excuse, honestly. This isn't a type of situation she's used to by any means, and she'll never get used to it. But she still shouldn't have put it off.
There's some nervousness in her movements, but mostly subtle. This isn't a conversation Touka ever wants to have with anyone. Especially not people she cares about so much. It's simpler- easier to just keep it hidden.]
I should've called you right away.
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Touka, I can think of far more disturbing things to do to corpses than eat them. But- why didn't you tell me?
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It's...it's not that I didn't want to tell you. I don't want anyone to know. Ever. That's how things've always been for me.
[She pauses, having a hard time meeting Sabriel's gaze.]
Getting found out back home? It sure as fuck isn't likely that'd I'd stay friends with anyone... Or even be able to stay in the same town. In fact, it's as good as a death sentence.
[It's not an exaggeration. This is survival...it's what she's grown up with.]
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But Touka's her friend, and she doesn't want to lose her.]
You told me about the CCG- I can't imagine what it would be like, being hunted by them. And I'm not going to tell anyone about you or Hinami.
But if- if someone else does find out, I can make them forget.
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Touka's eyes snap back towards Sabriel with some obvious surprise, and an answer stumbles out of her mouth.]
You'd-...Make them forget? [She's not shocked about the power itself, of course. But the offer to use it in the first place.]
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Locking away recent memories is simple enough, and you're- you're my friend. If it's not something you want known, I'll help you hide it- you've kept my secret too, after all.
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After a moment or two, she manages a small, quick nod- her heart beating hard in her chest.]
...Thanks. [There's weight behind that word- more than she can actually bring herself to explain in full.]